Mid 2014, I started a program I dubbed Operation 47. The idea was to get down to 100kg by my 47th birthday, which at the time of writing this, was less than a week ago.
It never happened.
I don’t need to soul-search or deeply ponder why it never happened. The whole idea was just too hard. The weight loss component was easy when I applied myself – all I had to do was adhere to a daily limit I tracked through an online application – and it worked; I lost 20 kilograms. I know it can be done.
But too hard an idea or not, I need to improve myself, physically and spiritually. I just do. I could describe it all as a mid-life crisis but I don’t feel like I’ve even gotten to any kind of “mid-life” yet. And yet here I am: forty seven years of age.
So what does the Dungeons and Dragons goddess Eldath have to do with any of this? Well, for some background on who she is/was, I recommend this site which gives a thorough rundown, but the condensed version of it is that she is a goddess of peace. And that’s peace in a tranquil setting, such as waterfalls, pools, rivers, groves and the like. Pastoral or sylvan peace. Pacific introspection and harmony with yourself and all about you, in a natural setting removed from the hubbub of city life.
I’m not a theist or a deist in any way – to be sure, I’m as atheist as they come, but I’m not blind to the benefits religious spirituality can give someone, even if luminaries like Carl Sagan and Richard Dawkins regard such things as delusions. Many religious people live whole and fulfilling lives. Lately, I’ve been keeping track of a website I stumbled upon quite by chance, written by an Irish clergyman named Patrick Comerford.
Eldath’s holy symbol
Canon Comerford’s blog is full of inspirational material and though I’ve never met the man, I can tell from his writing – and the passion in his writing – that he lives a meaningful and spiritual life.
Something to emulate, right?
I think so, yes but here’s something: I’m not a Christian – I was christened into the Anglican creed, but as I said above, I’m an atheist. The concept of an invisible divine being watching over us is both illogical and egocentric in my thinking. Plus, what makes a god that derives from desert tribespeople of the Levant the right god compared to say, Svarog of Slavic mythology? Because more people believe in the Abrahamic god therefore he must be true?
I’m getting off track here. No, I have no more belief in Eldath, a goddess invented by a Canadian librarian and role-playing gamer, than I do the god of the Bible, but I can empathise with the comfort and spiritual joy having faith in a supernatural being can bring. So, I’m retooling Operation 47 into something more life-encompassing than just simple weight loss.
I’ve outlined what I intend to do in a page.